maybe she'll snap her wrists doing cartwheels or her ankle dancing drunken at some rave maybe she'll go through a windshield and have twinkling bits of glass stuck in her face she's so pretty in her casts damaged so perfectly she's so pretty in her casts the prettiest thing I've ever seen I only get to hold her when she's injured I only get to kiss her where she's sore
dopesick for your sympathy I'm a cold slithering monster haunting your holy footsteps forever sweetheart blacken my eyes they'll still shimmer like assassin knives cut my lips off see the lacerations grin I'm a student of obsession you taught me everything I know
she rolls out of bed with the blankets wrapped around her dragging like the virgin's wedding gown there's a scarlet hourglass at the base of her spine four arms offer caresses four arms brandish knives her tongue twirls in her mouth spinning webs of lies
my eyes have changed color some sick yellow that I've never seen my stomach is knotted with hunger for the taste of sex obscene she whispers such sweet death threats in my daydreams so punish me for weakness blame me for everything I don't like the suffering I like the sympathy it brings
in this two bedroom tomb I'm sitting all alone with the television static and refrigerator drone I'm waiting for those blessed arms that seem to wrap around me six or seven times praying for the to come home I could cut myself to pass the time haven't felt anything in days a six year old girl dances on my ceiling she might as well be dancing on my grave
someday I'll find a way to win her over she knows it's me calling again I can feel her rolling her eyes these words I used to scream from the rooftops they just fall like ash from my tongue
with trembling fingers I trace her jawline such a geometric mystery of celestial design her fragile lips for delicate grins to spite the sour heart within I count the freckles on her shoulders I taste confection 'tween her thighs
she frolics through the rain whispering love insane her kisses exit through heart-shaped exit wounds her skin like flesh of angels her blood my catholic wine it moves slowly through me disintegrates my spine she's got heroin embraces that I still need to be in I force myself to loathe her so I can fall for her again her lips are wet with venom her posture's serpentine she'll touch my arm and flowers grow their poisonous and obscene all her shrugged little movements an d their despotic majesty in the midst of such perfection I can't help but feel diseased
like ss regalia on your skeletal frame a forked tongue French kiss from three feet away we hold each other like hostages one last time as the vipers spiral down your leg then spiral up mine
when she touches me it's like a rodent sifting through garbage but it's better than just rotting away when she kisses me her lips are like chalk beneath empty socket eyes compassion takes too much effort I suppose the dead honeybees suckle withered flowers 'cause they don't know what else to do
the tape across your mouth says more than your words ever could you're squirming and screaming as I tease your eyes with glowing needles crawl slug drag your shattered legs behind I know no matter how much I hurt you she'll always love you more than me but all of this isn't for the sake of her love it's for the sake of my jealousy
the bullet hole looks so right in your head like it'd been missing all along the blood streaked across your face like some twisted lover's deformed lipstick trace staring at your reflection wondering how you're still alive wondering if she's somewhere laughing deciding whether to let you die
yesterday she showed me her bruises pulled her sweater up underneath her breasts they were scattered 'cross her rib cage like a little patch of violet rorshach tests she said just 'cause I can't crawl inside you that doesn't mean I'm not your parasite she used to be so radiant so sexy when she laughed now her eyes look like gravesites as she speaks in epitaphs
half asleep in an open grave I'm gazing into the sky carving her shape in the dark clouds I want her to drown me in her poison I thought she was sewing up my wounds but she was really planting tumors inside
your heart looks delicious she says licking her lips as her kamikaze fists crash into floating ribs I stare at you the way you stare at your mirror so please show me no mercy don't be a soft assassin I scream though I'm laughing inside I know you can't destroy me but you're adorable when you try
buildings collapse in the distance behind you but I'm hypnotized by your quivering voice your fluttering eyes that I don't see them fall they could crack open all the cages set every demon free send a bullet screaming to the president's head crack it open for everyone to see I'm dead to this world so bury me deep in your arms tonight
push my fingers past her ear watch them disappear into her brown hair I wish the rest of me could go with them her bedroom is quiet but my heart screams a horrifying sound like a hundred crippled horses lying crumpled on the ground begging for a rifle to come and put them down
I can swallow secrets and spit up blackmail saccharine words and plastic charm can dazzle for a short time I just want to help you in my own selfish way I will bow my head and kiss your hand wishing I could snap every finger
I can feel the glacial crawl of time like a dull razor carving up my face I can feel the last drops of youth lingering inside I write another love letter to another heartless girl
these strange thorned vines spring from the ground they wind around me as they bind me down she moves across the rosegarden suspended in a dark cloud of flies her toes drag the tops of the flowers and leave them blackened and shriveled in her wake her hands dangle from thin strings of skin her forearms they're like gun barrels smoking crimson
been lonesome two years since she disappeared I'm at the park where she was last seen a vast green clearing wrapped up in maple trees spilling the morning rain from their leaves I used to walk here with a girl seventeen at the time mistress of seventeen smiles sublime with flaming locks of red in autumn and burning locks of orange in the summertime we were solemn and awkward that last night together she laid by my side staring into starless skies black as fallen angel feathers I stared into the forest pretending not to see the hangmen she was hiding in her eyes of serpent green she said there was another I refused to believe her I'd thought we'd kiss till our tongues tied together all my loving memories became scenes of frenzied slaughter my hands became cruel talons as they moved to destroy her her neck broke like a toy in a careless child's grip my tears rained down into dead eyes and splashed upon her lifeless lips I put her in the ground like a flower here I am standing in that same spot today where my angel's empty shell last laid and as my tears began to well up once more I see a path into the treeline that I'd never seen before I follow it down into a ravine find a hole in the earth framed in the roots of a birch tree subtle echoes of her voice speaking words I've never heard but the way she hissed her "s"'s it just had to be her I smell honeysuckle then opium two of her signature scents I pull aside all the thistles and vines and mesmerized I make my descent as I crawl further inside the light slowly dies and the dirt begins to feel like her skin I tremble as I drag my fingers down the walls caressing her sweet flesh again I'm sliding down trying so hard not to fall slipping on the blood that's seeping from the walls then suddenly I'm surrounded by a thousand of her eyes bathing the tunnel in a strange green light the eyes show me pictures like ghostly television screens all her thrashing final struggles and her ravaged corpse serene the tunnel is closing behind me pressing me further and further down I'm being swallowed by her earth and consumed by her ground the end is moving into sight I gasp and I scream as I see her lovely mouth five times the size of me her lips curl into a grin around her crooked gnashing teeth I'm pulverized and devoured in the jaws of a girl seventeen